Day 102: I think I have sleep disorders.
It’s very hard to second guess my sleep behaviors. Even I don’t know. I have the very best of intentions of going to bed at at decent — at least MY decent time. Last night it was about 1 AM. But, I did not fall asleep until between 5–5:30 AM. I was watching the sky change colors going from dark to light.
I tried the close my eyes, or open my eyes. Neither worked. Then, because I couldn’t fall asleep, I noticed things like a pain in my right scapula (injury from a car accident in 1976), or my foot itched, then my arm, then I had to turn over, then I might as well get up and pee… I’m sure many of you know the drill. This happens to me often enough to not like it. It doesn’t matter if I have to be up the next morning, or not. If I have to be up for something and it’s already 4 AM, I start get anxiety because I know once I fall asleep, it will be deep and full of dreaming.
Sometimes I will take a half a MG of Melatonin. If it’s too late, I won’t. The trouble with that is I can feel groggy when I wake up, and I don’t like that. But, I DO like the dreams. I think dreams can be fun because you know, even when you are in one, that you know somehow it’s just your ‘movie’.
That’s the other thing that I can do, and I know it just keeps me awake. If I can’t fall asleep, I’ll check my phone and get involved in the groups I belong to. Or, I will tune into my iPad, and watch a movie, or YouTube videos, etc.
Yes, I know, I do many things to stimulate my mind when I am trying to go to sleep. But, my logic is that if I tire myself out, I will fall asleep. Sometimes it works. But, I know I can fall asleep treating my self on my PEMF pad, or my far infrared matt with Jade and Tourmaline stones in it that heat up and release that energy.
So, dear Readers, that is what I am going to do right now. The day was productive, more to do tomorrow, but I deserve an earlier night. Smack!
