Day 135: I think; therefore, I am.
Today I signed on with another Masterclass, but this one isn’t to make my million dollars with promises how easy it is. This one is about personal power. Now, I already know that I have personal power, and I know that how I think is what I will manifest, and I EVEN know that my limiting beliefs will hold me back if they are designed to “keep me safe” which is what the brain does. It can instill in us to have fears about moving forward, and even if the present situation is restricted and controlling, it is a place we may have grown accustomed to. There is something “comfortable” about it coupled with a bit of laziness to make the changes necessary to expand. I can be lazy, and pretend I am ok with a current situation in my life, but mostly I’m not.
This whole ‘stay inside’ thing has given me plenty of time to think about my situation, and I have the opportunities to make changes. With everything changing rapidly the way it is now, it almost feels like a clean slate that I can write any scenario for myself that I want. There are many directions in which to go. I have waffled in those thoughts, for sure.
When this whole thing was forced on us, about two weeks in I thought to myself, will this change the plans I had made for myself in the two months preceding this? I told myself, no. Then about two months into it, after having taken several masterclasses in different areas, and CEU courses that were offered online (for my acupuncture certification and license) because we could no longer go to seminars in person — for now — my head started getting too full. Masterclasses make you do a fair amount of homework, and thinking.
I didn’t really know how long I would be at home, isolated, because the date kept getting pushed out, and then those who could go back were trickled in. I’m still here. New rules, new ways of doing things in my service industry (not hospitality) learning government rules about labeling products, etc., etc., started to make me feel my dream was becoming hopeless. I fell into the trap of “every time I want to expand, and (of course) put several thousands into building it, something happens that squashes it” state of mind. So, then I thought maybe it wasn’t supposed to happen, and my eyes would turn to something new. And, herein lies a problem.
1 Peter 4:10 “As each one has received a special gift, employ it in serving one another.”
I have been in the alternative healing arts for over 33 years, so I believe it can be safe to say, this is my gift, and this is where I belong. It doesn’t matter that I use my gifts in several different areas, i.e. using acupuncture techniques for resolving pain, or anxiety and stress, or using it for cosmetic reasons, to reduce the signs (and stress) of aging. It is still using acupuncture, and it is still using the theory, points, meridians, etc. Even the products I create uses similar theories.
So, I take these masterclasses, not because I am a student junkie, which I could be because I love to learn, and enjoy new perspectives from others. Somewhere I will combine all this knowledge into something spectacular because my way of life and thinking is to gather from many directions, fit them together, and use it in unique ways. A wheel with spokes can describe me best, I think. Each spoke is a different learning in a different area but combined together, they create a wheel that can do some fantastic stuff.
But, I still get stuck, and I haven’t fully figured out all the pieces to that, yet. A new masterclass that I am beginning really does feel like it is the one that will be best for me to unblock the one or two things that are in my way. I have spent a lot more time in prayer during this isolation, and I have been more outspoken about my beliefs without the worry of possible repercussions from others. I have let go of people, and I am not so quick to accept friend requests just to gain a great following, and look good to see high numbers. It doesn’t matter, anymore, as much. It doesn’t matter as much because I am changing, and I am creating my niche, and when I have done so, those that want what I offer, will follow. What I am not going to do is not finish what I have started.
I really DON’T care to be a billionaire. I am not jealous of all that money because I am sure it just comes with a whole new set of problems. It may give power, or perceived power, but my God is my Leader and WE will work out my life, together. Do I care about money? Yes, of course I do because it is a tool that I use to help me expand. Paraphrasing Ben Franklin, “the use of money is all it’s good for”. We have certainly seen that transfers of wealth can happen to anyone, if God wants to do that, but it is nice to not worry about bills. This pandemic, or plandemic to some, was proof that there are many things we can’t control, and how quickly the tide can turn. Both ways. Brick and mortar stores may be disappearing, but eCom is growing. Opportunities arise.
Goethe’s quote is taped to the right of my computer, and Mandela’s quote is taped to the left side. In between are two Roadmaps created by one of my teachers. I surround myself with books from my teachers and look at them again when I feel stuck. I have met so many wonderful people eager to help others grow, that even in isolation, I feel like I have tons of abundance.
Thank you for the Bible quotes, too. I use them, as well. It is a beautiful book that has said it all. Never did God want anyone to ever lack. The 1% can be a whole new group of people in the next decade. Circumstances are temporary, even if they last what seems like a long time. It does sadden me that the ‘looters’ we have seen, lately, on videos seem gleeful about taking things that don’t belong to them. They do not realize that they have not found a gold mine, but instead may find themselves in more serious trouble, and all that stolen stuff will be like sand through their fingers. They are functioning out of lack, and that there is not enough to go around, and someone is teaching them that. God does not have limits. They have not learned that, yet, or they have become complacent by taking, and not giving back.
