DAY 8: COURAGE

I Just got off the phone with my daughter, before I read this, talking about the EXACT same thing. I am so with you on this. And I’m a work in progress too. It is even more frustrating when friends and/or family try to discourage you from attaining higher positions or expansions. As if my wanting a better life and wealth is wrong or bad, somehow. Maybe they take it as a rejection of them, or their choices. I told the mother of a person I know that I had a particular Freedom Metric in my head that I was working towards. She just laughed at me. Her child seems to have a passive aggressive behavior to always let me know how I’m doing things wrong: website, expecting her to be on time for her appointments, not making commitments, my mentors are wrong, condescending tones as if I am ignorant… but “I’m just trying to help you”…. I don’t remember asking for your help, but you COULD help me by not making me wait for hours for an answer on something. BTW — I seem to have money, and you are barely working… and often asking for me to pick items up for you. Ok, that’s my rant. The relationship has been rocky from the start and I said this isn’t healthy more than once and maybe we should keep it real simple… or not at all. I think it’s going to be not at all.

It takes courage to let go of someone who is making life very difficult. It takes courage to stay away because you somehow feel guilt like the toxicity was all your fault. It takes courage to rise above that and create something better for yourself. It takes courage to look at your own life through your OWN eyes, and not everyone else’s. I can’t save the world but I know that I can save some. I know that with money I can do more for more people who can’t do for themselves. I know that I can reach a lot more people, maybe even provide jobs for some, give someone a chance to do better, teach others skills, and feel fulfillment knowing I did what I believe I was put on earth to do. But, I do get angry when I feel someone is trying to sabotage my efforts because I work hard. And I really am trying to work smarter, instead. Because, as I quoted Warren Buffet in an earlier posting, “If you aren’t making money while you sleep, you will work until you die.” The set up takes time and fails, but once it grabs hold and succeeds, that’s my sweet spot.